You know I for the first time in many years had a wonderful holiday season. Thanks in large part to some family members who chose to help me when I actually had a plan that might save my life from total destruction.
Now that I am past the first hurdle I turn to 2012 which is a real test for me. I am somewhat melancholy towards this year so far. My job is great, my home is great, I have a great companion in “Twist”, and still I feel down some days.
Don’t we all!
A couple of weeks ago I was disturbed that I could not get any of my kids to answer the phone and I lashed out. Wrong move on my part. I was somewhat suffering from what had transpired in the back of my car about a year ago and was reaching out just to talk to someone. Of coarse no one knew this and we all have our lives to live.
I have come to realize that no matter who has your back that there are going to be times when I will just have to deal with things on my own.
One Daughter has moved from Arizona recently to begin a new chapter in her life. I certainly believe that this move on her part will be a happy experience for this exceptional person not withstanding car trouble in the middle of nowhere LOL. Hey what doesn’t kill you makes you stronger, that is the way it is supposed to go isn’t it?
2 sons have gone through relationship issues and they are always hard. Believe me I know this. They are both great guys and still young enough to enjoy the prospect of future relationships that hopefully will work out to be great. That is my wish for them anyway. I am comfortable that this dream will happen for them.
So all in all things are pretty good.
In the past I used the sadness of not having much communication with my kids as an excuse to go back out there and destroy myself. That’s easy to do.
In the year of 2012 that is not an option.
I like my life, I love my Kids, I love my Parents, I love my Brothers.
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I will learn to love myself no matter what anyone does or does not do.
Thanks for all your help last year and feel free to give a shout out once and a while and be part of 2012. It is appreciated.
Love to all
